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Chaos Finding Form is Trudy-Ann's debut novel.
The story is a raw and beautifully honest portrait of internalised shame, queer identity, and surviving assault. Chaos Finding Form serves as a reminder that healing doesn’t come from being fixed, but from finding the strength to live fully, even when it hurts.
Perfect for readers drawn to emotionally layered characters, quiet strength, and stories that honour both the chaos and the beauty of becoming.
Think Girl in Pieces meets Speak meets Call Me By Your Name
Your Next Autumn Read
Chaos Finding Form is Trudy-Ann's debut novel.
The story is a raw and beautifully honest portrait of internalised shame, queer identity, and surviving assault. Chaos Finding Form serves as a reminder that healing doesn’t come from being fixed, but from finding the strength to live fully, even when it hurts.
Perfect for readers drawn to emotionally layered characters, quiet strength, and stories that honour both the chaos and the beauty of becoming.
Think Girl in Pieces meets Speak meets Call Me By Your Name
"Faith told her who to be
Love showed her who she was"
Chaos Finding Form is Trudy-Ann's debut novel.
The story is a raw and beautifully honest portrait of internalised shame, queer identity, and surviving assault. Chaos Finding Form serves as a reminder that healing doesn’t come from being fixed, but from finding the strength to live fully, even when it hurts.
Perfect for readers drawn to emotionally layered characters, quiet strength, and stories that honour both the chaos and the beauty of becoming.
Think Girl in Pieces meets Speak meets Call Me By Your Name
Amara Johnson
Amara is a haunted yet resilient teen who walks through life with the quiet burden of believing death follows her, yet still searches for meaning beyond the shadows.
Magoa Taylor
Magoa’s the quiet type who watches more than she speaks, but when she shows up for you, it’s with a loyalty and depth that hits harder than words ever could.
Kazia Johnson
Kazia’s the kind of girl who feels everything deeply but never lets it break her—smart, real, and just trying to figure out who she is without losing the pieces that matter most.
Kazia's story isn't out yet :(
But stay tuned! :)
Brayton Moussa
Brayton’s the ride-or-die type—tough past, big heart, and the kind of guy who'll fight the world for you but still remember how you take your tea.
Brayton's story isn't out yet :(
But stay tuned! :)
Brandon's story isn't out yet :(
But stay tuned! :)
Brandon Moussa
Brandon is Brayton’s identical twin — but that’s where the similarities end. Brandon is quiet, guarded, and sharp-eyed. Raised in the same tough New York streets, he carries his past like shadow — rarely spoken, never forgotten. He's hard to read and even harder to reach.
Emma
Emma is Kazia’s best friend — quick-witted, and outspoken. She has a sharp tongue, a soft heart, and zero tolerance for anything fake. Always ready with sarcasm or support (sometimes both), Emma is the friend who’ll call you out and cheer you on in the same breath. Also, BOOKS are her LIFE!
Emma's story isn't out yet :(
But stay tuned! :)
Kandice Johnson
Kandice is structured, and composed. She loves fiercely, though not always in ways her daughters understand. She’s learning, slowly, that love sometimes means letting go of control.
Kandice's story isn't out yet :(
But stay tuned! :)
Joseph Johnson
Large. All macho. All man.
The quietest in a house full of women. As a dad of 3, he tries to be the calm in the storm, often speaking less and listening more.
Joseph's story isn't out yet :(
But stay tuned! :)
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Readers' Voices
Maya L. (she/her)
⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐
"Raw. Devastating. Beautiful."
"I've never read a book that made me feel this seen. Amara’s voice is painfully real — like she climbed out of my chest and said everything I’ve ever felt but couldn’t explain. Her story doesn’t wrap things up in a neat bow, and I love that. Healing isn’t linear. Trauma doesn’t have tidy timelines. And love... love can be the messiest thing of all.
Also, the way this book explores queerness through the lens of trauma and religious guilt? Gutting. I cried when Amara stood up to her parents — not because it was perfect, but because it was brave."
Rowan J. (they/them)
⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️
"As someone who’s lived through sexual trauma and internalized queer shame, this book felt like a mirror. The part where Amara questions whether her queerness was inherent or trauma-triggered? No one talks about that—and it was done without judgment. The relationship with Magoa was so complex it made my stomach hurt—in a good way. I had to put the book down twice, but I always picked it back up. That says everything.”
Jordan M. (they/them)
⭐⭐⭐⭐½
"A book about survival that doesn’t apologize for being angry."
"Amara isn’t your typical “strong female character.” She’s soft and furious and afraid and deeply alive. That’s what I loved most. She doesn’t try to be inspirational. She just is.
The Magoa storyline really hit me. It walks the line between betrayal and understanding in such a complicated, human way. That relationship — romantic, platonic, messy — felt more real than 99% of YA romances I’ve read. Also: the writing? Poetic without being pretentious."
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For the fun Part!
Let's save the reading for the actual book, and meet the series MAINS
Forbidden Love
Amara
Forbidden Love
Magoa
Enemies to Lovers
Brandon
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Dad
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Mum
Pregnancy Trope
Brayton
Pregnancy Trope
Kazia
Enemies to Lovers
Emma
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